Sometimes to change your life it takes a lightening bolt. Sometimes it can be much more subtle than that but it feels like you have been struck while holding an umbrella and dressed in tinfoil! I think you get the point- but I had one of those expeeriences last night. I went as normal me but came home with a totally new way of thinking, thanks to the guru.
My guru doesn't even realize the extent of her power. She is not doing it for my benefit, simply sharing her own experiences and how she is working through it and challenging herself. Her honesty and insight has helped me to begin to see things in a totally different way.
My own opinion of myself in my relationship is unselfish and always giving. I often feel misunderstood, not heard or not thought about. (see not selfish feelings at all - its just me me me!!!) The big squirrel and I have been together for 16 years next month and married for 10 in September. A lot has changed in that time- mortgages, marriage not to mention three beautiful but often time sucking boys. He has gone from being my only, to one of many. He can take care of himself, so I expect him to. I am not the girl he met, nor is he the boy I met, but that is really for the better.
He can drive me mental, after this long he knows just how to push my buttons, but thanks to my guru this is now also my issue not just his. We are so busy running and trying to keep up, that we are misreading and misinterpreting each others signals, affection and intentions. Sometimes it is so hectic and noisy that it is hard to imagine stealing a quiet moment to have a conversation.
In changing my thinking it will change my life, my relationship. I don't expect immediate results or for it to be easy but it is certainly worth the effort.
To my guru, you are a rare being. You truly have a unique insight, a divine turn of phrase and a beautiful caring nature. Thank you for being you and for sharing your guruness.
We found a great playground which was set up like the sea and another set of twins to play with. We sat on our picnic rug and tried to look at the clouds but there were none but there was beautiful sunshine. Made for some lovely pictures with unwilling participants.
All of a sudden you seem grown up, like you are finding yourself and gaining confidence in everything you do. Where did those 7 years gone - they seem to have whizzed by so fast yet here you are a little man - a big brother and a wonderful little person. 
This extended the process and certainly upped the excitement level for a certain 7 year old.
In the evening we celebrated with family and a couple of friends who are really like extended family. We shared a meal and the kids had a lovely time playing outside together which meant we too had a relaxing evening.
The cake was an attempted griffendor sword from the 2nd Harry Potter book. This was easier than some of the alternatives requested - such as a sorting hat. It is sitting on perspect that I found as an offcut in the recent garage clean up. I think that may be a very useful find.
Happy Birthday honey. I hope you had a wonderful day.
Ahhhhh The last day of swimming. Each time I book in for an intensive week of swimming lessons I simply cannot wait until it ends. We had 9:30 lessons each day for the week, and the first couple of days it was great - then all the bathers and towels were wet and with the rain almost impossible to get dry. The kids were getting tired and frankly so was I.
This is a Japanese designer Shingo Matsushita. Now looking at the range it is far better conceptually and the execution is immaculate (ie no wires poking out or threads hanging off)
My gay boys were raving about the innate chic-ness of the designs. My girlfriends have borrowed mine for a tacky and 70s party! Maybe I need to rework the design?????
These are placemats I made for the twins. I still owe Alexander one but his needs to be different - more writing and less pictures. It was funny how this happened because I had an idea about picture chore charts and these placements came to mind. 
